I wrote a little post about something that had been on my heart for a while and I wrote it thinking it would be seen by the 100 or so friends and family who read this blog on a regular basis. Oh, I know how the internet works, as KEF has a younger sister who gets her fair share of attention and I've been at this blogging thing for a long time now.
I know that nothing is really "secret" but I've written lots of things here and they usually stay, well, here.
So, last week I stepped up to the microphone, cleared my throat as I stood in the spotlight of my favorite dive bar's open mic night (as I think of this blog sometimes), shuffled my notecards, and shared a not so brief history of my hair. Imagine my surprise when the house lights came on and I saw that there were thousands of you waving back to me.
Oh, hello there.
I know I've said it before and I'll probably say it again, but thank you. Thank you for accepting me and my story and thank you for being so open and honest about sharing yours.
That was really, really cool of you.
Awesome, in fact.
I'm doing this thing in April called VEDA or Vlog Every Day in April, only I totally haven't been. A daily vlog project and tax season isn't a good match for this family of seven* with a finance industry daddy who works 12 hour days this time of year. Who knew? Ahem. Everyone. Everyone knew.
* for those of you just joining us, since last Thanksgiving we've been a household of seven: me, my husband, our four kids, and my sister-in-law Angela.
Also, you should know that over there on my blog's sidebar I've got a sort of playlist of all of the things I write about here. You're welcome to pull up a seat and stay a while. The love songs are my favorite.
Anyway, if you've got fifteen minutes to give yourself a time out, I'd love to chat with you for just a few moments in today's vlog (and if you don't, well scroll on down this post because I have just one more thing I want to say before you get back to your dishes and dinner and those adorable little dirty faces).
This vlog is about motherhood and being your own cheerleader, plus I answer a few questions about my hair. But, it could also have been titled The One Where I Cry on YouTube.
Mentioned in the video:
- Spring Green: Spring Green: on depression, being an "older" mom, and going gray
- Lara Casey's Power Sheets
- the Restore workshop (this workshop is winding down and I'm not sure if/when it will be offered again)
- Elizabeth Foss
Look, you all need to know that I'm a mess. I love myself, but I'm a mess. I don't have it all together. I don't know any secrets or magic fixes. I'm here because of God's grace and finally stumbling into the clearing.
I cannot stress that enough.
I'm reading all of your comments and emails and messages and trying my best to respond to all of them, but I'm not sure I can and probably not in a way that does your amazing stories justice anyway.
So, I'll just leave you with this for now:
Find your own brave things, friends, and let them be a turning point for you. Big or small, loud or quiet, find a reason to be brave.
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